Zenful & Peaceful Mind in Turmoil
I want to be angry because of lockdown and pandemic and all kind of things media & news & authority tells you what you can and cannot do, every single day. But it’s getting pretty tiring… so I tried to write a few positive things.
I still feel quite afraid that people I love, my family, friends, overseas might catch this stupid virus or like my parents are also getting quite old and I think having to stay in lockdown without any other activities with friends might cause a fatigue.
Some of my friends lost their mom or dad because of this damn virus. It definitely shocked me in a way.
In Australia, Sydney, at bare minimum, we are still allowed to exercise and to buy things, take aways. Everything else seems forbidden. I mean, there is this rules: wear a mask, QR check in, avoid people, etc. At the beginning, everything seems like a joke, but after over 1 year of pandemic, and getting lockdown again, this thing is simply starting to get into my nerve.
Walk and breath of fresh air still allowed, so that’s a good thing. I could still buy takeaway coffee and hide and drink a bit, but it’s nothing like before. Slightly sad, however I like the quiet feeling around some places in the city, like Darling Square, Darling Harbour. Less cars in some areas. Less cars is good. Sometimes I feel “serenity” around, but sometimes I feel the atmosphere is a bit dead.
One could go to extreme like “shut it” everything, Japanese term “Hikikomori” might be the peak lockdown of yourself, without care of what’s going on outside. I could probably do that. But then again, I really quite like outdoor and nature, and seeing people every now and then. So I am pretty sane still.
I think the YouTube walk around and travel videos, of people out there in the world who can still enjoy outdoor is nice and good to keep sanity.
I feel like inside the movie “Old Boy” (Korean movie) about this man that’s suddenly shut and locked inside a square hotel room. Term “lockdown” is the worst thing every coined during pandemic. Seriously, it’s more like being more careful and avoiding being in crowded situation where you might (or might not) get a virus.
Anyways, I hope everyone is well. I hope I can stay sane. I wrote this here anyway maybe nobody will read this.
